It’s the beginning of the line that I wanted to utter myself during my childhood,but didn’t have the chance to deliver it. I grew up in a remote place where kindergarten or even a day care center is not available. After several years (when I was already in high school),a day care center was finally up and running in our barangay. And I would always attend the graduation and kept quiet in a corner as toddlers recite their line individually starting with “when I grow up,I want to become……” with matching dress that fits the profession they wanted. The child in me is always envious for they have delivered their dreams on stage.
As they recite,I also uttered the line to myself in a whisper.When I grow up,I want to become a doctor. Yessss,becoming a doctor has always been my dream,my ambition.I hold on to it in the hope of making it a reality someday.I was getting closer to realizing my dream until an accident happen.An accident that has changed everything in my life. And just 3 years ago, I decided to completely let go of that dream even if it hurts so much.
Maybe being a doctor is not really for me,GOD has some other plans.On the positive side,if I took medicine proper after my college graduation then I’ll will not be in Europe today. I’ll still be in Pinas with 2 possible fate : 1) passed the board exam last August (just like my college batchmates) and already working in a remote area to realize my dream of being a “Doctor to the Barrio”, or 2) burning the midnigt candle once again in preparation to retake the board exam for this year, trying my best to pass the board the next time,:)
